Bloody Confusion

I'm pretty sure no one's reading this by now, so I can just freely spill onto the pages, right?

Don't answer. It would just embarrass me. Well, what I'm ... what I might write here would just embarrass me.

>.< I NEED SELF CONFIDENCE. Without it, I'll be useless to everybody. This is for you, OMers. I'm trying... but I don't think it's working out. If you do end up reading this, I want you to know that I'm trying my best for you guys. I'm terrified at making a fool of myself, but by being terrified I'm already doing that.

And I know that.

But I don't know how to change. ;)

......................In other news, I'm cosplaying England in Hetalia. ^^ So I'm practicing an English accent. (Basically spamming Youtube) I must admit, I want to be that English guy... but it says guy. Though I know I can ask, and I also know the STUPID WAY I DID THAT LAST NIGHT IS REALLY IRRITATING TO ME... But ...... I really don't know...

I... I feel sort of lost, you know? And it's all pointless, because I'm bringing it on myself. And I also feel bloody tired. =_= I did sleep last night... and the night before... Well, duh. But I just don't know.

^_^ I'm going to drive myself mad before I know it. But there's nothing I can do about it.

One more thing. (Perhaps, this post is dragging on and on and on...) I PROMISE. I won't miss another meeting. It's infuriating me, not getting to those meetings. (OH GOSH, read those last sentences, it sounds horrible (they both end in the same word, the rhythm is horrible (OMG, I did it again))) *sai*' Well, yeah. If you did read this, I would appreciate it if you... would forget it.

It's not important.

I'll forget about it.

It... I'm... Just forget it.

Nothing happened.

(;

I'm perfectly fine.